Being Intentional

I have always been a planner. I have lists on top of lists of things I want to accomplish within a certain timeframe. I would complete the majority of the tasks, but there were a few things that were daunting. I have completed several eBooks that I have not published, videos that I had not loaded onto YouTube, reels that I had not loaded onto Instagram, pins that need to be loaded onto Pinterest and Digital products to be loaded onto my website. These are things that honestly terrified me. I would create these things, work diligently but not post. Case in point, creating and posting my blogs.

After watching a Podcast with Shonda Rhimes, where she said she committed to a year of saying yes to things that scared her. It resonated with me; I was scared to be seen on social media. I did not think what I had to say or things I was interested in was something anyone would be interested in seeing. Then I had an epiphany, why is my content not something to be viewed, why am I not a person who can motivate someone to trying different things. I would have conversations with my sister's, and they thought I was interesting and they loved my stories.

Essentially, it came down to me believing in me. I am not an insecure person normally, but this is an area that I really know nothing about, and I am going in blind. That is the fear, I could fail, or no one would watch or like. However, God intervened, I had videos, reels and articles that started showing up in front of me. People who were once in the same position as me and had to get over this fear. What I learned is, you can base a fear on what if's as it has not happened. My fear was based on a situation that had not occurred, it was all in my head and I needed to get out of my head and start doing what I wanted to do. I wasted years of thinking, I am going to post, I am going to put out the video, I am going to post the fashion reel and I never did. This is a self-fulfilling prophecy. It allowed me to wallow in the "proof" that I failed and would not be successful.

I finally said to myself during the Thanksgiving Holiday, I would not be in the same space next year. I started placing accountability things on my calendars on my cell phones, my laptops and posts everywhere. Seeing these finally pushed me to do what I have always wanted to do.

This post is my acknowledge to myself that I can do anything, anything as long as I believe in me. I finally posted my first video on YouTube, I posted a pin on Pinterest, and I have been posting reels in Instagram. My next thing is to edit and post my eBooks, post actual videos of things I like on YouTube and Instagram. I am in the process now of gathering content.

I am going to hold myself accountable by blogging my journey. I want to show that I can do this even if no one reads my blog, watches my videos, reels or eBooks. I can say to myself, I am seen and I can do anything with faith, with God.

Please join me on my journey.